learning to fly

I desire open, honest, and nonjudgmental communication from all people and all views and all ideas. The words of my posts are simply my own thoughts on how the church* can fully be operational in His Love.



“That you love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and muscle and intelligence—and that you love your neighbor as well as you do yourself.” ~ Luke 10:27  The Message

Growing up in a conservative church, I heard this verse plenty of times, usually with the emphasis on one of two parts. Either we were learning how to love God, or we were learning how to love others. 

That colored my thoughts, and therefore my actions, on what loving myself looked like. Turn the other cheek. Be a doormat. Put others needs ahead of my own. Love with no boundaries. Loving myself equaled being self-centered.

In these past few years, my understanding of this verse has changed, evolved into a place where I am beginning to comprehend just how revolutionary it is. As I am loving my Father m…

I have spent a majority of my life putting me at the tail end of all my collective lists. behind my husband and kids. behind my friends, my jobs, my activities. behind it all. I was so busy taking care of others that taking care of me was on the back burner. Now, I'm paying the price in various ways but mainly, my physical health.

"It is not enough to be busy. So are the ants. The question is : What are we busy about?"
~Henry David Thoreau

In all of my busyness, in my running to and fro, I knew that I was burning out. I felt it, deep down, but I was still ill-prepared for the eventual fallout, for how hard rock bottom would feel. I was busy but doing what exactly? was it beneficial to me? my family and loved ones? or did I simply get a twisted sense of accomplishment from martyring myself, day after day?


I had to get very real with myself. I sat down with my to-do lists and calendars. I cut away the nonessentials. I penciled in whole rest days. I made specific times that …