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     I am doing this in a public forum because my hope is that I will become more transparent, more open, more honest, and therefore, more real in the process. I have spent too much of my life being apologetic for being me, for my thoughts, my beliefs, my true self. I will not, I cannot, apologize for this blog and my posts in it. My sincere hope is that you would not want me to. I, in no way, will go about purposely trying to offend anyone, but I'm aware that some subjects might be offensive to others. Feel free to question me, but don't judge me. I'm just being true to me.
     I love to write about anything and everything. Some of my writing will be all about my first love, my Papa, the one who holds my heart. Some will be about real life, in all of it's gritty, down-to-earth truth. Some of it you might find boring. All of it will be me - how I am feeling at that time, what my thoughts/beliefs/actions are. You may find them enlightening, funny, sarcastic, or even offensive. These are just my thoughts on my life. My life may not look like yours, and that's okay. We are all different, but all His children. I am in the midst of metamorphosis. My metamorphosis is God-driven : He is taking me through this journey one day at a time, one step at a time. His approval is the only one I seek. I may not know everything that I need to, but I am learning at my own pace, at the pace He has set for me. That being said, I welcome differing opinions, because it just might change mine.

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